I FORGIVE YOU

Recently God has blessed my life with the knowledge of a small child dying at this very moment from an inoperable brain tumor that is cancerous. This little girl looks like an Angel.  Yesterday I was going through the entire story and reading all the comments from her mommy & daddy.  They are such an inspiration... and little Delaney? Wow!  She is so excited she is dying.  When her mommy asked her who told her that, she simply replied..."God did". 

As I was reading, I saw that this brave little 4 yr old, on what is the day my own father was born; was picking out her own casket and her final resting place.  Other than support for her and her family, I knew this child and her story had been brought to my attention for a reason...now to figure out the true reason.

Another recent update was Delaney asking if she could go to Heaven now. Her mommy told her God would come for her.  She mentioned seeing the Angels.  Oh, the innocence of a child.  They are certainly more open than most of us adults are anymore.

I find myself checking several times a day for any updates on this precious gift from God.  When I find none, I am relieved.  When there is one, I hold my breath as I read.  This little girl and her parents are so amazing. 

Today, while trying to complete a task I've needed to do for days, I started thinking about what lesson is it I'm supposed to take from this child and her story?   For some reason, I started thinking of the past few years and how involved I've been with the things going on surrounding Kelsey's story and her case.  How much time I have wasted, on things that do not have meaning in my life.  Kelsey's story certainly has meaning in my life, as does Kelsey's family.  Kathie and I have become very close.  The friendships that I have made because of knowing Kelsey's case, I will forever be greatful for.  A few have had a lasting impact on my life and we will be close friends forever, one I call my sister.  It's because of Kelsey that I have the priveledge to come to know these people.  Thank you Kelsey.  But what about the rest of it?

All of a sudden the words in my head...Do not waste your time on those that choose to live in the darkness. They are there by choice and know what they do. Remember forgiveness.  

I thought about that and realized that is so true.  They do the things they do of their own choosing. The words that come out of their mouths are theirs. Then I thought of Jody.  I did a lot of thinking of the darkness that has surrounded my life because of the negativity that you have brought into it these past few years.  I realized that I too have choices.  You have only impacted my life with your darkness, because I chose to let you.  Now I'm making another choice.  This one is for LaneyBug.

I realized that your lies and manipulations of the truth surrounding Kelsey's story do not hurt me. They don't have an impact on my life unless I choose to let them, which I have.  They do not have an impact on the case.  Very few choose to believe the lies you spread from your mouth anyway.  Many find their way to the light from the darkness you spread.  Your lies made no difference in a court of law, in the sentencing or in the decision of the appeals.  So why should I continue to waste my time and energy on things that simple do not matter and do not change a thing?  I shouldn't.

Although I've known it, I've forgotten I guess, until thinking about little Delaney and her short but so meaningful life.  Her and her family could be filled with despair and hold hate in their hearts for what is happening to this precious child, but they don't.  They make the most of every single day, not only for themselves but for little Delaney. They grasp the positive things in life and live for that, not the negative and darkness.  I have so many positive things in my life that I should be focusing on....a wonderful family, great friends, and life in general.  I'm choosing that.

So....because LaneyBug brought the light back into my life....LaneyBug sweetie, this one is in honor of you....

I forgive you Jody.  For the lies, the manipulation, putting my children in harms way over contacting my ex, your harm and hate campaign towards the Briggs and others....for everything.  You nor your manipulations will guide any part of my life any longer. None of it is of any importance to me or my life any longer.  I'm choosing the positive side of life.  I'm choosing to let go of the chaos and to do the only thing I know that will set me free from the darkness that has been brought into and I let into my life... and that is forgiveness.  And yes, I know you don't need my forgiveness, but this isn't about you any longer, this is about me and what I need to get back into the light of life and I need to forgive you.  So it shall be.

And to little LaneyBug....Precious Princess, you are amazing and truely the work of God.  One small child has united over 26,000 people in prayer and hope.  One small dying child, filled with so much happiness, truth and light, you have taught us so much.  I'm choosing to listen.  Because of you, I am a better person.  I choose the light and life over the darkness in this cruel world.  I pray for you to go with God peacefully if that is His will.  May the Angels wings carry you gracefully to the arms of our Lord.  Anyone who knows you or your journey here on earth, is a better person because of it.  Thank you Delaney...Peace be with you...Many blessings to you and your family.

As a dear friend says....Love & Light to all who read here. May your days be filled with hope, happiness and the light of life.  Leave the darkness where it belongs and choose to focus on the positive things that matter.  That is my wish for you.